out with the old and in with the blue

it's the last day of the year and i feel so blah today. i hate when i wake up and just can't "wake up." i wonder if it's just me or if other people go through this once in a while. i think i'm probably more prone to feeling lonesome and a little blue. it's a family thing i think. or maybe i'm just trying to put it on something it's not. anyway, i'm in the midst of cleaning the house up and feel unmotivated. i go to work again tonight for a full 3 hours. i have so much on my plate and it's subconsciously weighing me down. i have to find a fulltime job somehow because the bills will be arriving whether i like it or not.

then tonight is new year's eve and all these people are all hyped about it but i'm not. is there something wrong with me for not being a celebratory (is this a word?) person? what am i supposed to be excited about anyway?