unfriendly friends.

It's the second day of the year and I'm wondering who my friends really are. The people I consider my friends aren't really being all that friendly. This isn't an isolated incident but something that has been going on for quite some time.

Currently I'm back in my hometown with few local friendships but am excited to start anew. As for old friendships that I consider a bedrock foundation to my life..well, I'm really wondering whether they really do exist.

At the risk of sounding like a total loser...why don't my friends call me anymore? I call people all the time and get answering machines and wonder whether or not to leave messages. I'm starting to take this a little personally and don't really know how to confront these people. Is it fair to expect a phone call every month or two? Could it be that my so called "friendships" are only fictions of my imagination? Is it because we live so far away? And do people want to be as close to me as much as I want to be close to them?