Hmmmm

Well friends. Things are looking up. I don't know how but they just are. The sun is out more, I'm opening up my eyes to new opportunities--although it's still very difficult to see why I should consider them. But then again, no, that's wrong...I see clearly that I should consider them because for some apparent reason I cannot find an opportunity that fits my profile. I mean, I can't get a job I like. In layman's terms, I'm pretty much screwed and can't turn down a job that I'm not all that interested in ESPECIALLY since I need the money. Shooh!

Alright, it was good to vent. I'm exhausted now. After a day of spending time at a potential workplace without getting paid and coming immediately to the radio station to host 5 hours of Classical Music programming...well, you can see why I'm tired.

G'bye for now. Or as the Chinese chatters say "88"--the number eight in China is pronounced Ba-Ba--so, being clever as they are (and they love the word "clever"), they developed that little quick way of saying Adios, TA-TA, Khodafez, Zai-Jian, Arivederchi (sp?), O'vua (sp?), Ciao!

in like a lamb, out like a lion...or is it the other way around?

dude,

can the weather in louisville, kentucky be more confused? I think not. last weekend it was 68 degrees fahrenheit. today it's 38 degrees and snowing. whack is not the word. besides that, all is looking better. i worked all last week and this week i was lucky enough to land a temporary gig for the week that taught me that i do not EVER want to answer a phone at an office or make coffee. no, i do not and have never dreamed of being an Administrative Assistant but now that i have experienced it temporarily, i can say with conviction that it sucks and it especially sucks if you have to be under the wrath of some old dude who is still as insecure as he was as a zit-faced teenager. reason that this sucks is because this kind of guy that tends to be on the less confident side, will take his issues out on you in the form of a power trip. emails that he himself can print will be printed by you. coffee mugs that he should rinse out after using, will be washed by you. and the toilet seat will always be up even after his umteenth tinkle of the day--an investment in adult diapers might need to be considered for this sort of dude. anyway, it was an experience.

anyhoo. i've been trying to live life daily and not stress about what the next thing will be. i just can't care that much anymore. i don't mean that i don't care. but i guess the universe is working for us all and my time will come. i don't know what's gonna be my next step in the "circle of life" (think Elton John) but i am sure that i will find out.

so out with the old, in with the new! in like a lamb and out like a lion or whatever it is. let it happen and let it be, let me see! alright, i'm getting on my own nerves already!

better late than never

i have been lost in a storm of brain fuzzies and it's just taken a long time to get clear. i'm not totally out of the clouds but i'm getting there. speaking of clouds, i was so desperate to find a job that i almost went to atlanta for 3 weeks to train to be a flight attendant for a chartered airline. when i told my parents, they were confused, to say the least. some people were happy for me that i found something and were even saying how great i'd be at that line of work--in the back of my mind i'm saying..."yeah, but i'd be good at a lot of things." i think i almost needed someone to say, "Tina, don't do it. It's retarded." My sister said it and my parents were not pleased and last night after finishing my shift at the radio station--it hit me. I would have to quit something i really enjoyed in order to have a fulltime job with benefits--true--but a fulltime job where i'd never know where i'd be--a job that is sooooo random--a job where i could possibly die doing--and a job that is kinda' lame now that i think about it (no offense if you are a flight attendant:) . So last night i was supposed to go home and pack for today's trip to atlanta--a trip where the ticket is already booked and the room is already booked (by the airline). Anyway, so i am not gonna go. I didn't sign any contracts and i even tried contacting them several times to let them know last night and today. i've had no call back from them and figure i've done what i could. i know it's irresponsible not to go at such late notice but at the same time, it would be unfair to waste their time in a 3 week training class. it was a hard decision to make since i'm financially defunct but i'm gonna save myself some remorse and sit this one out.

just thought i'd write to let you know i'm still here but haven't really been here for a long time. truly.