it's been years

I felt like writing on this thing again only for the sake of keeping an online journal. I know that that is a bit selfish but I really need to write and haven't done it in so long and am glad to get back to it. I'm not expecting anyone to read this thing but I realize, looking back, that even if no one else reads it...it's really an awesome way of keeping track of yourself and all that you go through from year to year. Glad to be back.

I am feeling the pangs of PMS tonight and just thought I'd announce it to the world. I start to feel nervous, anxious, worried, fearful, and try and control things even more than I normally do at a time when it's really the last thing that I should be doing. Anyway, I've begun to take strides towards controlling myself from trying to do too much. For example...I try and to some of the most stressful errands like paying bills online or looking at my taxes an hour before I go to bed because that's when I start to worry about it--tonight, I held myself back from doing that very thing. It was so hard but I saved myself from me.

Just a little milestone to share.