out with the old and in with the blue

it's the last day of the year and i feel so blah today. i hate when i wake up and just can't "wake up." i wonder if it's just me or if other people go through this once in a while. i think i'm probably more prone to feeling lonesome and a little blue. it's a family thing i think. or maybe i'm just trying to put it on something it's not. anyway, i'm in the midst of cleaning the house up and feel unmotivated. i go to work again tonight for a full 3 hours. i have so much on my plate and it's subconsciously weighing me down. i have to find a fulltime job somehow because the bills will be arriving whether i like it or not.

then tonight is new year's eve and all these people are all hyped about it but i'm not. is there something wrong with me for not being a celebratory (is this a word?) person? what am i supposed to be excited about anyway?

it's 7:30 pm and i've been listening to classical music for 5 hours

Okay...so I work for this Classical music station and today I had to come in and pull cd's for 5 hours of programming. I didn't realize how long it would take me to choose the music and then go searching for each and every cd in our hu-gi-normous-ungous music library. Anyway, I'm sitting in the studio right now and writing this and thinking about how I'll manage to do this each and every shift. I guess it's like everything else, once you do it enough, it becomes second nature. Like if you haven't worked out in a long time and you start to jump on that elliptical machine with zeal and manage to use it for a whole 10 minutes. Come to think of it, I need to really start working out as well. One thing at a time, one day at a time, one more time, one more night, one-a-day for women, one moment in time, once in a lifetime, one love, once again.

Goodnight my lovely friends. I love you all and to all a goodnight!

old friends new beginnings

Had some lunch with some friends that I haven't seen in over 10 years. It's funny how long it's been since I made contact with these people. And now, after all this time, I still feel as if I have this deep connection with them. I wonder why I never attempted contacting them earlier. Maybe I thought that they wouldn't care to hear from me? Maybe I was being lazy? Or maybe I have forgotten how to appreciate the past and the people that were with me at crucial times in my life. There is something I've decided to do these past few days--it's that I will make a conscious effort to develop stronger relationships. I realize how much time I've wasted in building stronger ties to people and I regret the time lost. But, I am glad that I can stop my mental loafing and make a concerted effort at reconnecting with my past in order to develop my future.

Frozen

I love my apartment. It has an amazing loft style and since the apartment is so long, feels like it has two living rooms in one. The kitchen is open to the entire living space and is quite modern. There are 4 very large windows opposite the front door and the bedroom is small but surprisingly cozy. All in all it's great...the only problem is that it's freezing!

This past week it has been extremely cold in Louisville. There approximates 6 inches of snow on the ground and conditions are terrible for driving. With this in mind, wouldn't you think you'd want to stay home and relax? For most people yes, of course...but for me--NO. We have had no heat for the past 3 days! During this time we have learned the art of layering. I know how to wear 6 shirts and still feel cold and wear 2 pairs of long-johns and look stylin'. I have been sleeping with 2 comforters and still wake up feeling like the tip of my nose will break off at any moment. Basically, it's been a little difficult.

However, I've learned to be patient and today, finally, someone shows up and tells us how to get the heat working. All he did was flip a switch on the fuse/breaker box and a blast of warm air hits me. Wow! Wouldn't it have been nice if, during this time of giving (so called "Christmas time"), apartment management would have sent this man to flip the switch 3 days earlier? Wouldn't it have been nice if they could have called all the tenants that had been complaining of no heat for the past 3 days during the coldest temperatures in Louisville and told them that all they had to do was flip a switch? Wouldn't it have been nice if instead of sending out X-mas cards, they would have posted a sign with directions on how to defrost your apartment?

I guess coming back to America, you realize that although we live in a country that prides itself on customer service and giving---that it's a pretty damn selfish and self-centered society. A place where everyone runs off to take care of their own family, a country where someone worries more about feeding their home-bound dog than a homeless guy by the name of Dirty Dan that lives in the corner of their apartments parking garage with little more than a plastic bag to sleep on. Wow! I love America...

Getting lucky in Kentucky!

This is my first blog and I don't know what to write so since it probably won't be that interesting you might want to stop reading now. I guess I could start out by saying thank you to all of you out there reading this right now. It's nice to think that I have friends out there that are interested in what's going on in my life.

So Bo and I have moved from Atlanta back to my hometown of Louisville, Kentucky. Despite how it sounds, Kentucky is a lovely place to be and to dwell. I am living downtown in a beautiful high-rise building that was built in 1913. It has been redone and refurbished and I love it. It's a block from where Bo will go to school for the next year and 2 blocks from my work at the Public Radio Partnership of Louisville. I love not having to drive everywhere and thinking back on Atlanta and it's traffic problems--am glad I moved away from there! Another advantage to living in Louisville is being closer to the most important people in my life. My sister lives only an $80/45 minute flight away in Chicago and my best friend in the world, my husband (smiling) lives with me! Haahahah! Gotcha didn't I?

Those are the haps with me. At the moment I'm sitting in the studio hosting a Classical Music program on 90.5fm WUOL. I have no clue about Classical music but am really good at faking it! It's a great learning opportunity and I love the people I work for. I'm also working at another station just next door which airs Triple A format music--adult alternative contemporary (no it's not Celine Dion style music!)--91.9 fm WFPK. Both of my radio jobs are part-time at the moment but I'm praying for it to turn fulltime. The bad thing about radio is that, unless someone quits or just plain old dies, there aren't any open positions! Let's hope someone gets fired! I'm joking...REALLY.

Hahah! Thanks for reading my first entry. Join me each and every day or week or however long I can keep this thing up...for more stories on my adventures in bluegrass country (reference to Kentucky).