tard

i'm tard and my errs are ringin! just a taste of kentucky for all y'all out there. well, as some of you know..i've been trying to get a fulltime job at the station i work at. the classical station had an opening but i didn't end up getting it. actually, it turns out that it wasn't fulltime+benefits and all that so it actually worked out for the best that i didn't get it. i am happier after finding out about that. i am writing this as i'm working at that very station right now. and i've come to realize that although i like radio and dj'ing---i don't love classical music. and i think that it's best i am not fulltime at this particular station. i guess my desperation in getting some fulltime job kinda' blurred my vision a bit. in fact, i've even looked at taking jobs outside of this field. i really have no idea what will happen to me but i have no control. it sucks, but that's life i guess. it's been good having friends to remind me to stay focused and grounded and to be patient. i've had my ups n' downs but i'm constantly trying.

to be or not to be patient

do all good things come to those who wait? if this little saying is so true, then i pause to wonder, how long does one have to wait for the good thing to come? honestly, 3 months? 12 months? 2 years? i'm waiting and still haven't gotten my promised prize. i've been a good girl and have been patiently waiting for some big break to come my way. but, despite my efforts of making connections with people and whoring out my resume, NADA! so, if you ask me, the saying is a bunch of BS. a crock of crap. a load of @*#!

just wanted to put that out there.

I'm Aldified!

Has anyone out there heard of the Aldi? It's the boooooooooooooooooooooooooooomb! Okay, if you're in to finding values then you will fall in love with this place. It's a grocery store that carries private, high quality label items at a really low price. It's got unbeatable prices. And if you're on a budget-this is the grocery store for you. You can buy all the stuff you want and not have to think twice about whether or not you can afford it. Those junkfood snacks you crave but think is a waste of money...well hell, for 69 cents for a huge pack, you can go for it! Bags of salad at 79 cents to 1. 59 depending on the style of salad. Vegetables and fruits are cheap as hell! You can get your broccoli, cabbage, avocados, navel oranges and bags of onions at a fraction of a price! I should work for this place! I even bought milk and other dairy items there (including egg not at 99 cents!) and it was good! Usually at places like this, I feel weird about buying some stuff, but most of the stores products are comparable to what you'd get at Publix or Kroger. The only thing I don't buy there are meat products. Otherwise, it's got it all!

If you're skeptical or if you just want to know more about Aldi, check out this website and see for yourself. You can also locate stores in your area. It's worth a drive when you can get over 50 items for less than 40-50 bucks!
http://usa.aldi.com/

Foggy Blog

Do you ever have those days where you feel like your brain isn't connected to your spinal cord just so? Or that your mind is constantly hitting snooze? Today is one of those days...of course, it's only 10:08 am so things could definitely improve by the end of the day but I'm not gettin my hopes up. After 2 cups of coffee, I'm still totally zoned out. I've been doing a lot of shifts working at the classical station which can prove to massage your mentale so much that you become a bit hazy. It could be that I'm overly frustrated and utterly out of energy when it comes to trying to "think positive!" on my employment situation. Yes, I know what you're thinking...last blog was Sunshine and today it's fog...and I agree with you. I'm tired of my emotional weather system. I wish it could be a mild-60 degree-partly sunny day where you go and see a movie with an old pal and come home to snuggle up to a good few hours of tv before the work week starts.

In my world, every day is a day off. And so it's hard to be on. But, I'm trying and do my best not to call people and complain. I know it can be hard to listen to. That's why we can call on our old buddy the blog--to hash out feelings and sometimes, if we're lucky, entertain a golden few.

And to all a good night. Even though it's still daylight. Hit snooze and things will be alright. If only we could just unite and stop the fight for Mr. Dolomite and our Chinese Starry Starry nights of cheese and karaoke and calling everything nice, "lovely", and calling all things smart, "clever." Oh how I long for the days of old where eating at a restaurant on Changan Street was something to be told.

i've got sunshine on a cloudy day!

imagine me saying this in an indian accent..."i've got sunshine on a very cloudy day, berta!" okay. so my best friend is indian and i'm persian and i still love imitating an indian accent once in a while which is politically unkind and probably incorrect and can have lasting negative effects on my relationship but tht still doesn't stop me! i love u though. really. okay...so let's get serious...
i am happy! well, for the moment atleast--cross your fingers!

someone at my station may be putting in their resignation and do you know what that means for me???? it means a hostile but happy takeover! hee hee heee...i'm not sure if this will happen but rumors do have it that it is quite possible that i could be landing a fulltime gig as a classical music host! hahahh! the sound of it makes me giggle and gargle and go gabbidy goooooooo--goo! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! this has happened all in week's time! also...i received an application in the mail from a local tv station here (another location i can walk to from my awesomely located apartment--did i mention i love my apartment location? obviously.) This application really had me confused since i applied for a job months ago and didn't get it. so i called the number listed on the app and asked what this was all about..the lady on the other line said they'd filed my resume a few months back and found that i'd be a good candidate for an associate director position that they had coming up and hadn't even posted publicly (hee-hee--i feel special). so i got a little ego boost and felt a little better that someone wanted me!

i am wanted! finally i am wanted!

hopefully all of this ranting and raving and getting all excited will amount to somefreakinthing by the end of this week. if not...well, then that's just life.

goodntired-sounds like guttentag!

i'm good and tired. tired and good. i've come to the conclusion that all i can do is surrender. but i find that there is a fine balance between surrendering and laziness. i still haven't found that balance yet. for the last two days all i've accomplished are household tasks and mastered the art of being a good wife. i've supported my husband in his first few days at his new school--he's new to the U.S.--and have also managed to cook a meal or two. that's about it.

i love life. really, i do.

i really love life and all it's challenges but am getting a little worn out. i've been looking for a fulltime job that i like since i moved to the u.s. but haven't found one. it's been a long time. really, i'm not exaggerating. i wonder if i did something really bad and now my karma is catching up to me or maybe it's God's way of testing me to be patient. but if He is...then how much longer am i gonna go through this?

if anyone is reading this...could you do me a favor and say some serious prayers for me to be able to get a job that pays well and that is a step in the right "career" direction. really, i'm not that picky...when i mean pays well--i really don't mean all that much. just enough to pay the bills and for a few trips to the grocery store. believe me...every bit counts. thanks guys...wish me luck!

unfriendly friends.

It's the second day of the year and I'm wondering who my friends really are. The people I consider my friends aren't really being all that friendly. This isn't an isolated incident but something that has been going on for quite some time.

Currently I'm back in my hometown with few local friendships but am excited to start anew. As for old friendships that I consider a bedrock foundation to my life..well, I'm really wondering whether they really do exist.

At the risk of sounding like a total loser...why don't my friends call me anymore? I call people all the time and get answering machines and wonder whether or not to leave messages. I'm starting to take this a little personally and don't really know how to confront these people. Is it fair to expect a phone call every month or two? Could it be that my so called "friendships" are only fictions of my imagination? Is it because we live so far away? And do people want to be as close to me as much as I want to be close to them?